A step back.

A step back.

Sometimes life throws a spanner in the works, and two weeks ago that’s exactly what happened.

For reasons still unknown to me, my lower spine has an inflammation and the swelling is sitting on my nerves which is making most of my lower body numb!

I thought I’d done something at the gym (yes I actually joined a gym, that’s how far I was willing to go to become HEALTHIER this year), but when nothing got better, and it started affecting my ability to walk, I went to A&E.

I spent a whole week in hospital! After numerous tests including MRI’s and a lumber puncture (a procedure I NEVER want to experience again!), I am now recovering at home. I have been signed off work for THREE weeks and having physio to strengthen my legs (which hurt after minimal movement) and learn to walk normally again.

This was the year I decided to embrace the second half of my twenties, get stuck into new experiences, focus on my career, health, relationships. It’s amazing how something out of your hands can shake things up!

Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining – I’m extremely lucky. I don’t have a life threatening illness, I only had to spend one week in hospital while patients on my ward were visiting for their regular treatment, and I should make a full recovery – but the whole thing has really scared me. Something was going on inside my body without any cause of my own and I wouldn’t have known about it without going to hospital. Now I can’t stop thinking about my friends and family – what’s going on inside their bodies?

I’m also still in a period of unknowing, as at this stage they don’t know if this could happen again. And if tests suggest it could, I could have MS.

I’m going to try and take the time out as a gift, try and stop freaking out and reflect on the future. Hey I’ll have more time to update this! And do things like read! But I am worried anxiety is going to steal focus…watch this space.

 

 

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New Year, New You?

New Year, New You?

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2016 is here and so are the TV ads telling everyone to get fit, lose weight and stop drinking…

Though I understand these are all great things for one’s health, I have decided not to set unrealistic resolutions this year. I AM going to drink, (glass of Prosecco in hand as we speak), I AM going to continue to stay in and watch Netflix for hours on end, and I AM going to continue to eat my bodyweight in pasta.

Rather than cut things out, I thought about things I’ve always wanted to do and things to work on during the year instead.

This is where Something Borrowed was born.

Last year, I was in a job I had a love/hate relationship with. I worked in a sales position for a bridal magazine, and though I loved all things bridal, the job made me dread waking up in the morning. My boss was cruel, the wage was insulting and I stuck with it for three and a half long years. One way I’d get through each difficult day was to keep on track with wedding trends, read the latest bridal blogs and keep tabs on the industry and its hardships. I made brilliant relationships with people in the industry, from fabrics manufacturers to gowns designers, and I loved to see new bridal business’ flourish. The job was far more than just sales and targets to me.

Now I am in a sales position in a completely new industry (a job I love to go to every day), but I do miss all things weddings, and I thought, why not write about it in my spare time? Amongst other interests and passions I have. A lifestyle blog, with a wedding twist.

I want to practise writing every day, as I don’t often have the opportunity to in my career, and I envy people like Lena Dunham, who has the self-belief to just go ahead and do it (everyone should sign up to http://www.lennyletter.com/ for a twice weekly email on feminism, style, health, politics, friendship and more).

Even if nobody stumbles upon it, at least I can practise writing and hopefully improve.

I’m definitely no J.K. Rowling or Charlotte Bronte, but I simply enjoy writing and if it’s something you enjoy (like eating, drinking and watching TV), than why the hell not do it. You only live once.

5 things to do in 2016

  1. Something Borrowed, Something Blue
  2. Be brave
  3. Budget!
  4. Focus on relationships
  5. Focus on career